so...i guess i should update...lol...havnt done that in awhile...i dunno...everytime i try 2 nuthing comes 2 mind really...i mean...i just dont hav the energy...or maybe the interest 2 update much anymore...lol...but i promise i will try my best...hehe...

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so lets c...watsnew...umm...nuthing really...haha...thank gudness finals r over...although didnt do 2 well on most of em...but whatevers...i got the grades i wanted...so ya...hehe...other than that...just waiting on the edge of my seat 4 those wonderful college rejection letters i am bound 2 get...lol...i hope not...i jus really dont want 2 set myself up 4 this big huge disappointment...therefore...i am being quite cynical bout the whole situation...ya know

so how bout i just post sum pictures and call it a day...l8rz

so of course w/ the coming new year there's always a reflection of the past year...its kinda one of those unavoidable annoyances that u just find urself in from time 2 time...lol...i dunno...sumtimes i like thinking about the past and sumtimes i dont...lots of gud memories of course...especially w/ the beginning of senior year and all that...but ive had my share of bad memories...maybe better than past years but still pretty bad...but then again...when i think about it it was all in the beginning of the year...so i guess overall my life is great...going uphill for the most part...i just hope i dont end up falling into sum kind of misery or sumthing...which is usually not far behind when ur feeling gud...lol...wow...sounding somewhat cynical here...thanx 4 every1 hu has been there 4 me...actually thanx 2 every1 cuz 1 way or another u hav affected my life and its led me here...so ya..l8rz guys...

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"Think about this... You may not realize it, but it's true.

1. At least 2 people in this world LOVE you so much they would DiE for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A SMiLE from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special&unique.

9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.

12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you BELiEVE in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.

13. Always remember the compliments you received. FORGET about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.

15. If you have a GREAT FRiEND, take the time to let them know that they are great.

 so i could quite possibly b the only person hu still updates...but hey...it gives me sumthing 2 do..haha...as if i shouldnt b doing better things...but watevers...xmas is pretty much here...yay...

 so sorry but im ranting and raving about sumthing called LOVE...which could b a very dangerous thing since its gonna b out in the open like this...but watevers...i just dont know anymore...what does that word really mean...u c...or hear about people falling in and out of love everyday...so could it really b true love...whatever that is suppose 2 b...love is suppose 2 b sumthing pure and special and great...ya know...makes u question how people can say theyve fallen in love soo many times...and how quick the whole ordeal is...and im stuck between the old romantic view of how love is suppose 2 b and how love is now...i just dont know anymore...

 and u wonder y im soo skeptical about relationships...dont get me wrong...my relationship right now is going great...i have no problems...its actually kinda funny cuz ive been struggling w/ the fact of me being in love @ this point or not...it wouldnt hav even entered my mind if we hadnt hav been getting constant questions bout it...then i started getting confused...i mean how do u know when u r or when ur not...how do u know if its real...and dont tell me faith right now cuz it doesnt work 4 me...jk jk...u can just imagine all the things goin on in my head...it was this big old mess...ya thinking is soo not gud 4 u...but w/ stuff that has recently happened...(not w/ me)...im thinking that was more of "in the moment" type of thing...im not ready and i know that...in time maybe...but right now "love" is not sumthing i want 2 b dealing w/ in any way, shape, or form...so ill jus stop now...hehe

 so ive been in vegas since yesterday...we leave 2day...ya u ask whats da point...no clue...especially since it couldnt hav possible been the worst 2 days 2 go...i missed everything goin on in palmdale...i was soo sad...lol...i guess it justifies all the shopping ive been doing...omg...complete RETAIL THERAPY...no joke ive bought soo much stuff...well i guess not really me but more like my mom and my aunt...although i did spend a grip of money...lol...i feel kinda bad but then im xcited cuz i got all this new stuff...xmas came early 4 me this year...lol...ok...im gonna go...were goin home 2nite in time 4 xmas eve...and i hav 2 run a few errands 2morrow 2 make up 4 me being gone and missing the "COOL FAMILY" party...l8rz

so i hav a NEW obsession now...the LOVE IS... comic strips...like i said b4...they are soo cute...so heres the story behind that...my cousin and i were going through all of her old stuff this morning...she had boxes of pictures, books, clippings, letters, etc...we found some of these comic strips among the pile...and i remembered when we even used 2 go ask the neighbors if they had LA TIMES so that we could get them...so i went looking online just now and found a grip...so instead of icons...u get love is... comic strips...of course ill jus switch liek every other entry or sumthing...but ya...hehe...im retarded i know...

omg...so i was suppose 2 go 2 gerrie's 4 our gift xchange thing...but o no...my mom decides were goin 2 vegas...grr...im soo annoyed...actually more @ my dad than her...cuz after arguing and begging and pleading...i got her 2 say yes 2 me staying behind...so i was all xcited...thinking i might just get 2 do that...however...my dad says otherwise...therefore i am forced 2 go 2 vegas wednesday and thrusday...its not like i mind goin...i actually like going 2 my aunts house...just when i dont already hav plans ya know...o well...my mom said she'd make up 4 it by taking me shopping...hehe...so i dont come out of it empty-handed...

anyway...i know ive been saying this 4 like the past month or sumthing...but deal w/ it...so xcited 4 xmas...its coming and im thinking where has my year gone...seriously thoe...its gone by soo fast...its crazy...and 2 think of how close everything is...4 ex: graduating, college, leaving...its even crazier...i just wanna enjoy the time i hav left...

ok...so the major event of da week...i got CONTACTS...woo hoo...freakin finally...i was soo xcited...it was so funny @ school 2...i was tripping out cuz everything was clear...hav u seen that claritin commercial...where the screen is all foggy and then it becomes really clear...well ya...thats pretty much xctly how it is 4 me...hehe...i know i know...my eyes r horrible...but now i can see...lol

thank gudness xmas break is here...i think we all need 2 take a break 4rm school...haha...now its time 2 sleep in all day and stay out all night...ok...maybe not xctly...but u guys get the picture...plus CHRISTMAS is a week away...woo hoo...i cant wait...xmas is seriously like my fave holiday...im still not completely done w/ my shopping...and my room is overflowing w/ gifts that i need 2 wrap...cuz of course after every1 goes shopping in my house it gets dumped in my room 4 me 2 wrap...o wat fun...hehe...ill get them done sumtime this week...haha

so we had the CREASIAN CHRISTMAS PARTY last night...although im kinda sad 2 say that nobody came...tear...but it was still tons and tons of fun...the people hu went were the people we normally hang out w/ anyway...so it turned out 2 b like a little kickback thing...ya know...sucks 4 all of u hu didnt come...haha...plus we had very very very gud food...so there....hahahaha...we really did hav tons of fun thoe...so all is well...so plans 4 xmas break...lets c...hang out w/ friends...lol...ya...i think thats pretty much it...i mean i do hav sum hw 2 do...and i will do that...and im gonna try and spend sum time w/ my baby...i miss her...i barely get 2 c her now...tears...lol...so ya...

one major goal im gonna get done this break...get a phone card 2 call my frends in the PHILIPPINES...well @ least the ones that i hav #s 4...which is really only like 4 or 5...but still...i swear im gonna get that done...i cant wait 4 summer 2 come so i can go c every1 there again...seriously thoe...u jus miss people...especially people u grew up w/...and really goin 2 school there ur w/ da same people 4rm preschool till college...so i miss all my childhood friends...plus new ones that ive made since then that r there...haha...but ya...summer is gonna b my time there...definately...hopefully i wont really hav 2 go by myself...but ill jus worry bout that l8r...

i am xcited bout that time...but @ da same time i can wait 4 a little bit...there r jus stuff here that i dont wanna leave behind...cuz its not like im jus gonna b gone 4 that month or watever...but it also mean leaving 4 college and starting a new life 4 myself...and thats kinda scarry 2 think about...ya know...it seems like im jus starting things right now and already theyre coming close 2 ending...but its ok...like i said b4...ill just worry bout that LATER...